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When You Believe… by YarrowKae

I believe. Say it, out loud. Let it sit inside and reverberate through you. Do you BELIEVE it?

I believe.

Seems so simple, right?

It’s far from it. Believing comes from extracting fear and worry. The extracting of fear and worry is hard work. And in order to get to the other side, in order to get to the place where you believe, you have to go through.

When I go through, I’ve found that the old habits and fears come to the forefront and it’s quite easy to latch onto those, to let them run amok on my mind and send my heart into a panic. It becomes comfortable to attach to my habitual ways of being and to need validation that everything is going to be okay.

I’ve been guilty of this always. Even though my intuition is strong, I have a had a hard time believing it. I let my mind play tricks on me. Our minds are slippery characters capable of sabatoging even our best intentions. Mine likes to build paranoid delusions, destroying the beauty that only moments before glimmered in my view.

When we don’t feel safe and secure in the material world, when we don’t feel grounded, it leads us to create fears and worries. These fears and worries  stop us from believing. And when we don’t believe we can’t achieve.

I never realized how strong the world BELIEVE actually is. It’s in our believing that we create our own magical, joyful world. I was one who enjoyed the cynicism, the painful analyzing of a situation. I am still guilty of falling into this habit at times.  But, no amount of analyzing ever made me feel safe. Rather, it made me feel crazy. But I would do it anyway. I’d run away with stories and talk myself in circles driving myself nuts. My mind took control overriding our most valuable asset, our intuition. A regular Bikram yoga practice has nearly eliminated this nasty habit.

Through our practice we extract and go through. And as we are going through we have our mats to come home to where we can kick, stretch, and breathe– where we can let go. Our asana practice helps us to wrangle our wild horse of a mind into submission so that we are able to be still, be quiet, and to trust.

In our yoga practice, while we are kicking and stretching and breathing, our minds surrender. As we move from one asana to the next we are able to extract the fear and the worry, the stagnant energy that holds us back and we are able to go through it without attaching to it. Through the sweating, the stretching, the contracting of muscles we release, we let go, and we learn to believe. And when we believe we are safe. When we believe we know we are loved. When we believe we are home.